More Neglect

"Watch as city lights dance for us"

All I see is darkness. And stars. Above my head in the dark sky. No light, but I know what's around me. I can see everything. The grass I'm laying on, the girl at my side. I can see her red hair and her blue eyes. There's no light to tell what the colors are but I know her. I know that's what she's looking like here in the darkness.
We're invisible here in the grass. It's taller than I am when I'm standing so here, laying on the ground, there's no knowing we're here. But everyone who needs to know, does. Her and I, here, looking up at this sky. The sky that stretches for billions of miles in every direction. So much space that no one knows about. Almost like me. Though one person knows what's at the end of me. The very limits of this being I am. I am 99% uncharted territory. So much of me to explore, to discover. Though unlike the sky, someone has seen it. All of it. And is continuing to see all of it. She's laying next to me. I can hear her breathing at the same pace that I am.
I look over at her, watching her watch the sky. She feels my eyes and turns her head to look at me. I'm staring into her soul. I am seeing all of her, as she's seeing all of me.

In the darkness of my room, my mind has wandered again. Fabricating scenarios involving her and I. This is what I do. All day and all night. Keeping her with me at all times. So many nights she's been with me as I fall asleep. I put her together as I lay in the black; black of my sheets and black of the dark. Starting with her lips. Then she's there. All of her. Beside me, inside me. And that's where she stays till I fall asleep. She then joins me in my dreams, keeping me safe as I wander the demensions of sleep. She leaves just as I wake in the morning so she's the first thing I see when I open my eyes.
I dont sleep much, anymore. I have no reason to. My body doesnt need it. It's almost as if I've come upon a new energy source that keeps me going for hours and hours. She's always there, no matter. She's taken me over, and I've taken her with open arms.


I hope she never lets me go.