I told you so

Yesterday was by far the absolute best day I've had in a very long time.
Even though the missing was so bad that I was in physical pain.
I watched her for hours yesterday, on the web cam. She looks so utterly amazing. I tried for a long time not to just break down right here in front of the computer screen. It worked for a while, but then I surrendered and bawled like the baby I am. Just crying because I felt so good and so bad all at the same time. It was overwhelming. But it was wonderous.

Dreampt of her last night. Had a grand time to say the very least.

Today has just been wide eyed wonder. Wondering if she'll be on again. Wondering how I got so lucky. Wondering how I could ever come up with the words to finally prove to her how amazing she is. My mind doesnt form thoughts in speakable terms. But in ways that only I can understand what's going on. This could be because of my mental instability. No, it is, no doubt.

My very few faithful and regular readers are sick and tired of hearing about her. BUT YOU CAN SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS. Though, Megan sees now how I can talk so much about her. She's amazing, isnt she, Megan?