Another Round at Personality testing

Taken from The Color Quiz site mentioned in an earlier blog entry. Just took it minutes ago.

Your Existing Situation:
Needs, and insists on having, a close and understanding relationship, or at least some method of satisfying a compulsion to feel identified.
Your Stress Sources:
Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to feel secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being passed over or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be any better in the future and this negative attitude leads her to make exaggerated demands and to refuse to make reasonable compromises.
Your Restrained Characteristics:
Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left her listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied him.Emotionally inhibited. Feels forced to compromise, making it difficult for her to form a stable emotional attachment.
Your Desired Objective:
Unwilling to participate and wishes to avoid all forms of stimulation. Has had to put up with too much of a tiring or exhausting nature and now desires protection and non involvement
Your Actual Problem:
Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of her hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. She tries to escape from this by withdrawing and protecting herself with an attitude of cautious reserve. Moody and depressed.

I have found that as of late, I'm over the top. So much that it drives everyone around me crazy, myself included. I'm loud, speak my mind, I have absolutely none of my reservation I used to have. Seems I don't know how to restrain myself anymore.
I've realized what it's from. On the eve of four months without her, I know why I am increasingly crazy. I have different ways of coping, and it seems that I am doing the exact opposite of how I feel to somehow trick myself into being happy. Instead of walking around being depressed, I'm overly happy. Manic, I guess. It's coping with her absence. I know, though, that if this longing was relieved, I would be able to come back down. But with no relief in sight, I don't know what will happen.