What A Load Of Carp. Yes, you heard me, Carp.

Reading over old entries, I'm starting to wonder where my crazy smart kid ramblings went to. Big words and beautifully put together sentences seem to have disappeared somewhere along the way to now.

But do I honestly care? No. Not right at the moment.

You see, I would have written about it earlier, but we were going to do this little surprise thing for Heather. Her mom was going to come pick me up and I was going to go down and stay there for the weekend. It was going to be a huge amazing surprise and I was going to be happy, crazy happy. I was so proud of myself for actually asking my mom because that was a BIG! deal. I hope you're proud of me too because if you're not then you just suck. So I had to ask again because I didn't get an answer the first time and you know what mom used as an excuse?! It's going to rain.
Me. Angry. It goes without saying, huh?

So I was going to have an awesome amazing weekend NOT sitting here alone and you know, the fact that I was going to be with Heather made everything about a billion times better and I cant go because it's going to RAIN.

Right at this point, I really don't care where I go, even though the one place I want to go is there, just because I haven't been out of the house, I don't go out of the house, I don't get to do ANYTHING.

ass.

well, on a bit of a happier note though it is a bit worn out by now and frankly the whole "I'm really proud of myself and blah blah blah" is kind of gone: I'm at 99% in advance algebra... I was super excited and just... wow... you know, because that's a crazy good thing... but now it's all kind of lost it's luster somewhere underneath severe anger and depression and exhaustion.

but whatever. I'm done caring for now.

Erro.