Today is the last day that I will hurt because of her.
Today is the final day of my horrid habit.
Today I realize that I cannot fall so utterly in love with anyone the way I have for more than one person in the past due to the fact that I cannot trust them to not break me to pieces. Whatever their intentions, it is bound to happen.
Today I take my life back.
Today, today is a day that could go down in history. Everything before is a fond or not so fond memory. Everything after is for me. For no one else but myself.
I promise to work as hard as I can towards this. I have to.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Siiiick
I made it nearly a month through a particularly germ-filled year (Everyone at school is sick and has been since day one) without getting sick. But Thursday afternoon I began to show signs of catching something and by the time I woke up Friday, I was sufficiently sick. I am utterly surprised, however, that I lasted this long.
Things around here havent been getting better, not quickly, not efficiently. I take a step forward and then something happens where I'm sent three steps back. It's very inconvenient and very tiring. Not to mention the fact that I am attempting to maintain our friendship in the process. That makes everything that much harder.
I absolutely adore our new art teacher. Enough said.
I may be developing a weird sort of something. We'll see where that leads. This is very confusing to me and to anything I've known about myself. It just adds to the confusion and everything going on right now.
I'm just about done with anything relationship based simply because these girls are driving me crazy. I need to find a fairly stable, good-looking, short-ish lesbian who likes me, is mature, intelligent, and isn't a cunt.
Pfft, wish me luck.
Things around here havent been getting better, not quickly, not efficiently. I take a step forward and then something happens where I'm sent three steps back. It's very inconvenient and very tiring. Not to mention the fact that I am attempting to maintain our friendship in the process. That makes everything that much harder.
I absolutely adore our new art teacher. Enough said.
I may be developing a weird sort of something. We'll see where that leads. This is very confusing to me and to anything I've known about myself. It just adds to the confusion and everything going on right now.
I'm just about done with anything relationship based simply because these girls are driving me crazy. I need to find a fairly stable, good-looking, short-ish lesbian who likes me, is mature, intelligent, and isn't a cunt.
Pfft, wish me luck.
Monday, September 01, 2008
Nothing Important
Spent the weekend in Minnesota visiting MOA and the zoo. I think I havent been that tired in a long while.
My birthday is next Sunday. I currently do not have a vehicle.
I had meltdown after meltdown last week. I dont know if this one will be any better but I'm hoping so. I have too much artwork to complete.
I want a suicide girls subscription for my birthday. I'd also like some fun fabric, furry probably, and felt, to make things with. I'd go for an anteater, too.
Ah yes, and I wouldnt mind getting laid.
My birthday is next Sunday. I currently do not have a vehicle.
I had meltdown after meltdown last week. I dont know if this one will be any better but I'm hoping so. I have too much artwork to complete.
I want a suicide girls subscription for my birthday. I'd also like some fun fabric, furry probably, and felt, to make things with. I'd go for an anteater, too.
Ah yes, and I wouldnt mind getting laid.
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